The New Me

Over the last few months I have been acutely aware of my need to gain some balance in my life. Family life, church life, work life, life life have been in direct competition for too long now. So much so that I have sought out the wisdom and prayers of a spiritual director. She has me looking over the things in my life and identifying them as either consolation or desolation. And, she has me working on embracing the love of God instead of trying to achieve more of God's love. i.e. by doing a really good job at all of the various things I do. She said today that God could never love me less AND that God could never love me more. I knew that God could never love me less. I mean, I teach that to every teenager I talk to. That's the truth I carry with me. But to think that, even if I develop the best product ever at work or start running again and finally lose that baby weight or get through the day without raising my voice at my 4-year-old or sing in the choir or teach that bible study or take on every burden known to man--even then, God would not love me more than he does now. Hmmm. Now that's a thought that makes me want to sit down and soak it in. I think I will.